Friday, May 23, 2008
I've been going to James Logan High School all four years. I've been an average student for most of my educational career. During classes, I would do most of the work, and homework. Still, there are a few classes I've managed to fail in the past, but I've been able to make those classes up. I could say I'm proud of most of the things I've done in my high school career, but still regret many other things. Now being a senior, there is one major issue that I regret, and that is the constant class cutting.
To be truthful, I've been cutting classes since my freshmen year, starting off with the occasional
double lunching to see my friends who I normally didn't see during my own lunch period. It continued throughout the year. Sophomore year was basically the same as freshmen year. Then, junior year came, the year that I discovered the various ways to leave campus. I found out the many gaps where I could escape undetected. I even figured out where the CST's routes would be.
Then, senior year came, the year when normally people would get their first car, the year of senioritis. I went crazy. I would constantly cut. Cutting was just a need I had to fulfill, an addiction I had to feed. Cutting was for my enjoyment. I would cut day after day, for so long, even
my teachers didn't recognize me for the longest time.
When I would leave class I would just take my car out and drive around, going to anywhere and
everywhere. Grabbing food, going to the mall, and hanging out with my friends. When I didn't cut, I would feel this emptiness that would build in me. Sure, I felt guilty about cutting, but I didn't care, I was having fun. I mean I went to school for as long as I could remember, and I needed a
break right? I deserved it or at least that's what I thought. I was pretty much wrong.
There comes a time when you notice that an addiction you feed is wrong, and realize that when it's already almost too late. Like what many wise people say, you only hurt yourself, and that's what I did, I hurt myself. So as of right now I'm failing most of my classes, I'm on exclusion which means most of my senior activities are cut, and I'm in danger of not graduating and walking the stage.
So, right now I'll stop the constant cutting. I've been going to every single class and lucky for me my teachers are allowing to give me make up work, but life would have been better if I had stayed. I regret the times that I would leave school. As a senior right now, it's heartbreaking to know that the thought of working so hard at school can still not change the chance that you can't graduate.
Right now I am trying to regain the education I lost, and am trying to catch up for lost time.
Still, it may be too late for me. So, my message to all the folks who cut class is that it's not worth it. I know that sometimes people live for the moment, and just want to have fun, but you still have to think about your future. You can't be selfish and just think of your enjoyment, you have to
think about your education. I know its cliché, but it's the truth.
So to all the cutters out there, I advise you to stay in school! I promise you, It will all be worth it in the end. In my life I have made a lot of bad choices, and many good choices, and one of the things that I regret most, is cutting.